Today it is so very cold! I spent the morning watching two of my beautiful boys play footy and have now returned home. First task was to pack my bag for the hospital.
Two sets of pj’s Two bras A robe Two sets of lounge clothes A pair of trackies Socks Undies Toiletries Benefibre Chewable vitamins Lip gloss Cardigan ….. yep that seems right – OHHHHHHhhhhhh and a long phone charger cord!
Next job is to do my online shopping so that I can start my food prep for the next few weeks while I am taking things a little bit easier
One thing that I have learned is that documentation and research matter when it comes to making a huge decision like the one to undergo a surgery like this one.
Knowing what you want to achieve and why makes it so much easier. We upgraded our private health insurance 14 months ago so that we have top hospital cover and then knew that we were on a countdown. For me, this isn’t about becoming waif thin, wearing a bikini or even how I will look at the end of this process. For me it is about avoiding type 2 diabetes, avoiding knee surgery and getting rid of the mesh that holds my lower abdomen together. I have realistic expectations and I also know that while the surgery is a tool, I have to do things differently.
I came to terms with my body a long time ago. I am not sure if that is one of the joys that comes with being in my 40’s or not? However, I am more comfortable in my own skin than I have ever been before. I know what my body is capable of and I have put a lot of my self loathing away. So I suppose I am actually emotionally prepared for the change that has already begun.
Once I realised that I was ready for surgery I set about finding the best surgeon to perform the procedure. I talked to a lot of people, read a lot of reviews and eventually settled on someone with an outstanding reputation. I did consider going to QLD and having the surgeon that operated on my siblings and also on me 9 years ago do my weight loss surgery but I am happy with the choice I have made.
I made the appointment with my surgeon for one month after I had satisfied the 14 month waiting period for the changes in our health insurance to take effect. Two weeks prior to the appointment with the surgeon I saw my Gp to get a referral letter.
After that it was appointment with the surgeon. Finding out the gap payment for this type of surgery can make your eyes water a little bit. Mine did!!
Then a phone call to the health fund with item numbers from both the surgeon and the Gas Dr. 6 item numbers in total – this is to check that all of the item numbers are covered by the health insurance provider. Also ensuring that your surgery takes places in a hospital preferred by your health fund is a good idea so that you are at less of a risk of out of pocket expenses.
Start pre operative diet 2 weeks prior
Barium Meal X-ray
Pre operative appointment and pay all out of pocket costs to the doctors
June 10th 2018 – I’ve been sitting in bed (it’s cold in Geelong this morning) thinking about how grateful I am to the amazing people that have been so supportive towards me. 9 years ago, when I had lap band surgery and the mesh hernia repairs, I ended up in and out of hospital for 18 months – it was horrendous for my family. We are now 8 sleeps away from surgery!
My beautiful family are as supportive as ever. Without Steve none of this would be happening. I don’t have enough ways to thank the guy that has happily and sometimes grumpily stood by my side for 23 years. He hasn’t ever made me feel like I was less loveable as I am and through the good and the crap times, he is always there for me. I am thankful that my Mum will arrive next Sunday. She is taking 11 days out of her life to come and be here for my family – that means so much. With Mum here, the care of my grandfather will be on my siblings, both the blood ones and the love ones – thank you guys for making it possible for Mum to come down – especially considering that my brother is having back surgery on Wednesday!
My amazing friends locally, have been and will continue to be, such a great support. Our children’s school community have offered their support also in practical ways and I honestly feel overwhelmed and grateful. Also my beautiful grown up kids will be doing school runs for me because I am not allowed to drive for 6 weeks. You know, they don’t have to do this stuff but I am so blessed that they will. Without my village this whole thing just wouldn’t happen. I am grateful!!
May 17th 2018 – What a week it has been! And this photo is 5 minutes old – I am trying to decide if I should plaster myself in make up to try and cover the bruises or just leave them out. One week ago was surgery for the cyst above my front tooth. It was dealt with 18 months ago but decided to come back. Does anyone else watch Dr. Pimple Popper? All I could think was that the sack wasn’t removed last time so this was always going to be possible 😳 I didn’t really expect to bruise quite this much though. The funniest part of this, to me anyway is that the extensive bruising to the inside of my mouth looks, on the outside, like I have a moustache 😂😂 Today I get to go back and see Dr. Ching and he will take the stitches out of my mouth! Yay!!
I have decided to be honest with myself. Honest about where I am at and why I am where I am. It’s nearly impossible to change if you aren’t honest with yourself. So here I am – 50 kilos over my ideal weight. I have tried everything to bring my weight down, and have had successes in the past, only to find myself back at this point again. But I refuse to be a victim of circumstances, shitty “fat gene” genetic mumbo jumbo, or my own bad choices any longer. I have decided to heed the medical advice that has been given to me and surgically deal with my obesity. I plan to take my life back one kilo at a time.