Have you started doing laps of your house yet? Staring randomly out of the windows longing to see other people? Have you left the house to do essential things like shopping and found yourself super excited to see the staff at the check out counter? Ummmmm well that may or may not have been me today 😆😆 It was super exciting to me to hear another female voice! We have been in isolation for 5 weeks and 2 days. That feels like a long time but honestly, in the grand scheme of life, it’s a blip isn’t it? I feel really fortunate to have these days with our boys. I am so grateful to them for their chilled out natures and for the fact that they haven’t even suggested doing anything that they know would put any of us in harms way. Stage three restrictions are working here in Victoria! The Corona Virus Curve is flattened and because of that it is likely that restrictions will start to roll back slowly in the weeks ahead. But what to do in the mean time?
There is only so much Netflix that I can stand. Actually I am not a television watcher. I will sit and watch movies with the kids but since my Weight Loss Surgery I don’t enjoy the TV like I used to. Perhaps I associate it with after dinner snacking? But whatever the reason I just don’t like to watch it for hours and hours so that isn’t a good way for me to occupy my time. My isolation boredom busters are things that I have stumbled upon quite on accident. I am loving caring for my indoor plants. I have loved learning how to look after them and am enjoying the challenge of keeping them alive! I already knew that I loved reading, so that has just continued on, and I do spend a good part of each day studying and learning. The new additions to my life have come in the form of all things fermented. I know that not everyone cares how bubbly my sourdough starter is today, that my kombucha is perfect after its second brew or that my kefir grains are growing 😂😂 and hey that’s okay! I was delighted tonight when one of my sons helped me start a Ginger Bug tonight so in a few days I am going to try my hand at brewing a fermented ginger beer!
One of the other wonderful things about being fairly isolated is getting to know myself again. The things that I like, what makes me tick and reevaluating how I want my life to look going forward from here, after isolation is over, after this year is over and into the rest of this decade. I am excited for the changes that are coming. I used to fear change and letting go of things but so many situations have taken place in our lives over the past few years that have caused me to learn to go with the flow. Even in this past week as Steve waited for the results of a procedure I was reminded over and over that we are not promised tomorrow! I’m grateful for each new day and for the opportunity to be kind – to others first and also to myself.
I haven’t left my house for anything other than the absolute essentials in over 30 days and I have to say that it’s been hard!! Covid-19 is something I am very happy to stay away from!! During these weeks I would be lying if I didn’t admit that food has called to me! So far I have managed to tell the food cravings to shut the hell up but it’s not been easy!
I have dealt with stress the good ole “have a cuppa and something to eat” way my whole life! All the better if the food was either covered in butter or made from copious amounts of it. So what do you do if you are changing your ways?
I have had to short circuit the thinking that I had that would lead me to the refrigerator. I hate little walks, I spend time outside, I practice relaxation techniques and I exercise. Stretching has become a favourite part of my day. My body was so tight from years of abusive food habits and lack of movement. But slowly, day by day, I am getting my ability to move back.
What crazy days we are living in. I am writing to you from my position on my bed, where I seem to do all of my best writing. It is dreary in Geelong today. The heat feels like it is being drained out of the sun with each new sunrise and I can feel the bite of winter starting to nip at my heels in the early mornings and in the evenings too. I am struggling with the cold this year. It feels like it is seeping into my bones in record time. Life feels like it is so up in the air right now. Covid-19 has taken hold of our population and it’s grip is growing by the minute.
Of recent times I have longed for days gone by. I have poured over photos of our kids when they were small and wished for those younger years – those skinned knee kind of problems that Mum’s and Dad’s can fix with cuddles and kisses. Instead, we live in a world that is filled with instability and insecurity and I can’t help but feel a little bit overwhelmed. Yesterday our kids had their last day of school for Term 1 of 2020. Our State leader closed schools 4 days early in response to the covid-19 crisis and we now have level 1 lock down restrictions in place. In Australia the School Year runs in line with calendar years. Term one typically starts at the end of January, and concludes around the end of March. Our children are expected to move to an online form of learning for the remaining 3 days in this week and then their school holidays will commence. At this stage, school is resuming on the 15th of April. We will see what that looks like in the weeks to come I suppose. I wouldn’t be surprised if further lock down measures become necessary to control the spread of this terrible virus.
This weekend our Beautiful eldest boy will turn 18 and he has cancelled his party. To say that I am totally gutted is a gross understatement. I am beyond gutted that this has been necessary for him. We have planned his 18th of months and months but to keep everyone safe, these are the measures that our government has put in place. This evening all house parties and birthday have been banned so we will be here at home for quite some time. In some ways I feel privileged to be at home with my children. I get to just love on them and enjoy their company. What could be better than that! There are other moments when I feel fairly overwhelmed by the hopelessness of this situation and all that it means for so many.
In the middle of all of this, the panic buy and food hoarding that is going on I admit that I have been finding it difficult to find my usual staple food items. Being coeliac and having a very picky tummy post WLS makes food choices difficult at the very best of times – but most of what I regularly eat has not been available for 2 weeks. I didn’t really see it as a problem until I ventured into the scales this morning and fricken hell! I have managed to lose 2 kilos in the last 2 weeks. I suppose I had better try harder to find foods that agree with me out of what is readily available but that feels like a massive task right now. In the mean time I hope that you are well and that you stay safe.