The things that make me happy

Over the last little while I have been working on things that make me happy. Things that bring joy into my life and focusing my time and attention on them. I think I have been doing this to distract myself from the fact that my surgery is just 4 sleeps away – YIKES!!!!! Recently I have been asked quite a lot of times why I need more skin surgery and this is seriously a fair enough question. The fact is that I am only 3 kilos lighter now than I was when I had my skin surgery 18 months ago! Soooooooooooo it isn’t because I have lost a hell of a lot more weight. It isn’t because of what I eat and don’t eat. It is because I was super morbidly obese and this is what my damaged skin looks like. This is my reality and it is just a part of how I am. Something that makes me happy is the thought that after this surgery I will be a little less saggy than I am today. I would like to have just a bit smoother skin – I know I won’t be perfect but a little bit smoother would be very nice. I like to try and imagine what it will be like to be able to fit my arms into clothes without folding my skin into them.

Another thing that makes me happy is looking after myself. I spent so many years locked in a cycle of self loathing and hatred and being cruel to myself that I never ever did nice things for me. Those days have ended and I like to now make myself really nutritious little meals that bring joy to my heart! I find that this has been part of a healing process for me. Finally taking care of myself physically has certainly coincided with losing that level of toxic hatred of myself that used to always simmer away inside me. The things that I like to make the biggest fuss over is breakfast. I think that has probably been intentional on my behalf because I always ignored that meal. I have grown a big love for smoothie bowls and making my food look at taste as appealing as possible is helping me to care on a daily basis about the way I am nurturing myself! Who knew I would ever care about this kind of thing! But I do!! What are your favourite breakfast ideas?

I share a lot more of my food ideas on my instagram which is so feel free to follow if you would like more pics and I get my pretty powders from

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My joy and love for pretty things has hit full force! I am a bit obsessed with smoothie bowls over the past few months and I also have quite a fascination with cute tiny spoons 🤣 I have found that rather than skipping breakfast, if I bother to actually make an effort for myself then I don’t miss breakfast and I want to eat it because it looks so good! Sometimes I make the base from my favourite VLCD shake and sometimes I just blend banana and my fav yoghurt and collagen protein powder together – but whichever way it tastes so good. I have even used the powders in chia pots and in overnight oats! 🤤🤤 I kind of feel like eating stunning blue or purple food should mean that it is full of fake things but it doesn’t mean that at all!!! It is powdered superfoods. I am in love with pure botany blue spirulina and it’s actually available on Amazon 💕 I am also a bit obsessed with their Acai powder!!