I am updating this page and adding a lot of old blogs of mine so you can expect to read a lot more from me in the days ahead but lets just say that as August of 2019 draws rapidly to a close I remain incredibly grateful. I am so fortunate to have had gastric bypass surgery. I am blessed to have hit every single one of my personal goals and I am looking forward to the future like never before.
This has not been easy. It is probably the most difficult think that I have ever done. Weight Loss isn’t easy – no matter how it happens. I needed surgical intervention to help me, but that was just the start of the process. Undoing a lifetime of self medication with my drug of choice has played with my mind in ways that I never dreamed it would. I have been forced to confront the parts of me that I did not want to look at, that I did not like and that I still struggle with and I am slowly making peace with my past.
I can’t speak for anyone except myself, but I can say that I have been totally undone by the mind game that is a 90 kilo weight loss. To become completely unrecognisable in 12 months does things to you! I am learning about myself again. I am rediscovering the wonder of being able to do whatever the hell I want – just like anyone else that is not morbidly obese. I don’t have to worry when I walk into a cafe if there will be a chair strong enough for me to sit on, or if I will be able to avoid being stared at by rude strangers while I grocery shop, or wonder if my children are ashamed of me when I cheer for them at their sports days. Every single day I seem to find new ways to become more comfortable in my own skin and that has been a revelation!