“the entire universe is inside you” a line from one of my all time favourite movies! Prior to my Weight loss surgery I feel like I spent a good portion of my time eating the whole world. And now – I am at the “I cannot believe that I am nearly at 6 years post RNY” point in my story. I lost the majority of my weight in the first 16 months post WLS and I can honestly say that maintaining things has not been an easy thing for me. I tend to lose weight really rapidly but then again I can also gain quite easily too. So where to from here?

I think that I am going to always have a complicated relationship with and around food. I will probably be wary of foods’ power over me, for the rest of my life. Eating to live is the way that I live my life most of the time, and for the most part that it works for me. Except on days like today.

It has been a LONG time since I did one of these posts. It has probably been, ohhhhhh, about 6 years since I did something as stupid as what I did today. Today has been one of those days. I am under a time crunch on a project I am working on. There are some things going on in my personal life, I jumped online earlier to some less than nice messages, I am staring down the barrel of a surgery and quite a few others things and I guess I just felt extremely triggered. So I thought “hmmmm perhaps I’ll have a hot chocolate.

Now, this is NO JUDGEMENT on those of us that drink hot chocolate! Go for it, go you good thing and have what you have!! Unfortunately, for me, I know that I cannot drink it without being sick. Well at least that is what happened the last time that I had one like this. But being in a bit of a mood, I thought “hmmmmm surely after 6 years its all good now!” NOPE, Wrong! I made one, I drank half, realised that I was going to be sick and I was absolutely correct. Sick as sick can be! That was not my finest moment! But “well done” to myself for causing one of the most vicious dumping episodes I have had. So in today’s “things that we shouldn’t do, but will do anyway” moment, we can learn that when we should know better, sometimes, we don’t. I am not going to say that I won’t do that again – who knows in another 6 years I might be feeling stupid/forgetful again! Ugh. When I feel like shit tomorrow – feel free to remind me why!