What crazy days we are living in. I am writing to you from my position on my bed, where I seem to do all of my best writing. It is dreary in Geelong today. The heat feels like it is being drained out of the sun with each new sunrise and I can feel the bite of winter starting to nip at my heels in the early mornings and in the evenings too. I am struggling with the cold this year. It feels like it is seeping into my bones in record time. Life feels like it is so up in the air right now. Covid-19 has taken hold of our population and it’s grip is growing by the minute.
Of recent times I have longed for days gone by. I have poured over photos of our kids when they were small and wished for those younger years – those skinned knee kind of problems that Mum’s and Dad’s can fix with cuddles and kisses. Instead, we live in a world that is filled with instability and insecurity and I can’t help but feel a little bit overwhelmed. Yesterday our kids had their last day of school for Term 1 of 2020. Our State leader closed schools 4 days early in response to the covid-19 crisis and we now have level 1 lock down restrictions in place. In Australia the School Year runs in line with calendar years. Term one typically starts at the end of January, and concludes around the end of March. Our children are expected to move to an online form of learning for the remaining 3 days in this week and then their school holidays will commence. At this stage, school is resuming on the 15th of April. We will see what that looks like in the weeks to come I suppose. I wouldn’t be surprised if further lock down measures become necessary to control the spread of this terrible virus.
This weekend our Beautiful eldest boy will turn 18 and he has cancelled his party. To say that I am totally gutted is a gross understatement. I am beyond gutted that this has been necessary for him. We have planned his 18th of months and months but to keep everyone safe, these are the measures that our government has put in place. This evening all house parties and birthday have been banned so we will be here at home for quite some time. In some ways I feel privileged to be at home with my children. I get to just love on them and enjoy their company. What could be better than that! There are other moments when I feel fairly overwhelmed by the hopelessness of this situation and all that it means for so many.
In the middle of all of this, the panic buy and food hoarding that is going on I admit that I have been finding it difficult to find my usual staple food items. Being coeliac and having a very picky tummy post WLS makes food choices difficult at the very best of times – but most of what I regularly eat has not been available for 2 weeks. I didn’t really see it as a problem until I ventured into the scales this morning and fricken hell! I have managed to lose 2 kilos in the last 2 weeks. I suppose I had better try harder to find foods that agree with me out of what is readily available but that feels like a massive task right now. In the mean time I hope that you are well and that you stay safe.