Once upon a time in a land long ago, there lived a sad lady, trapped inside a body that she had abused for a terribly long time. Through a long, difficult and gut wrenching process, she would learn to turn the narrative of her life around and she would become the things she always wanted to be.
I don’t know about you, but there is this excitement in my heart that I cannot get away from as I continue to peel back the layers I have lived my life behind. I have a few little rules now that help me to remember that going backwards is no place to go! It’s sometimes so comfortable to sit with the past and with the things that have been familiar. But as time passes I have no desire to make a home with and sit with things that are comfortable if they are not empowering me and taking me towards my goals.
I have found that my future calls to me. It beckons me to take steps and do things that I previously thought impossible! It calls me on from where I have been and draw a me forward into new things. I used to loathe change. I saw it as a mark of inconsistency! Now, I see change as power! I see the ability to adapt and be transformed as the most empowering show of resilience that we can embody. We choose to move forward or we choose to shrink back and my days of shrinking have ended. They ended when I said NO to the voices that spoke anything less than purpose into my life. Today is far too valuable to waste it.
“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life,”
Henry David Thoreau
Walden; or, Life in the Woods
That is how I want to live now! Today was a glorious foray into the great outdoors – it wasn’t planned but it was perfect. I see so much beauty everywhere I look because I am no longer obsessed with how much space I am taking up in the world. I no longer worry about what someone may think if they see me standing in a line at a cafe or enjoying a long walk by the river. The narrative of my inner life isn’t consumed with self depreciation, but rather, with eyes to see the joy, beauty and opportunity in each new day!!! Oh let me go into the woods! And the treasures that I find just seem to tumble out of my heart via small, and let’s face it, slightly cold fingers that fly with deft precision across my keyboard. Life has never been more beautiful or more stuffed to the brim with potential than right now! What a revelation it is that we do get to decide how we will respond to our circumstances, you get to choose your path and that is the most wonderful thing of all.
Much love Tash x