The biggest changes in my physical self may have commenced in 2018 but the most gigantic change in me as a person began in 2020. I learned a really valuable lesson. That lesson has changed and saved my life!
I knew that what you feed will grow. I have seen that in my life over and over again. I have seen plants grow, my kids grow, my animals grow and heck I saw myself grow and shrink according to how I was fed!! It took a long time for me to translate that into my emotional health but I finally have.
This year I learned who is really in my corner. Not who says they are in my corner but it is really all about them, not the gossips who like to be on your socials because they think you post your whole life there, and not the people who are waiting to find something to pick at!!! I learned that my circle is small, it’s beautiful and it’s no surprise who is in it and who isn’t. I have learned that I can survive and thrive when I am broken and I have learned that being around people who empower, who build up, who encourage and who are always believing the best of you is a wonderful thing!!!
I have finally learned that it is possible for me to disallow my thoughts to take me to a bad place. I have learned to starve the fears that like to grip me and allow hope to rise. Give me the dreamers, the doers, the forward thinkers, the life questers! Those with brave and positive hearts, who speak about their hopes and plans and have a weather eye on the horizon. Give me those people every single time. We are responsible for our own thoughts and I don’t go down the rabbit hole of self loathing anymore!!