I learned a long time ago that everyone does not have to understand, approve of, agree with, endorse or even like my choices. Most of us make life changing decisions quietly. But how does a 140+ kilogram woman become a 60 kilogram woman quietly? It doesn’t happen because people are bound to notice!
I have lost “friends” because of my choices and I am okay with that. I don’t give a rip what anyone else thinks of what I have done or why I have done it. People have told me I took the easy way out. Yep it’s so easy to have your insides re-routed because you are drowning in your own fat and your own body refuses to shed your excess self no matter what you do. I can totally see the logic behind that train of thought. My surgeon said it best – he told me, on the day that I met him for the first time “No one sits in that chair unless they have tried everything else first. You don’t have to justify yourself to me. I just want to help you!” If people don’t have that attitude then they aren’t in my life. Be helpful and kind – cheer me on or be silent because this is still hard work and I won’t have any negativity around me.
I am the one that has to look myself in the mirror every day. I am the one that has to live with me for another at least 50/60 years!! This is why I didn’t ask anyone else what they thought of my decision. No one else has to live in your skin except you and honestly – no one else has to live inside your body. I am happy to be doing something to transform my health. I am no longer pre-diabetic! My blood pressure is what it was when I was 18 (120/60) after being 150-160/93 for a few years! My knees don’t swell every night and I feel good at long last! So do I regret that some people don’t agree with my choices ….. ummmm actually I am very good at never thinking of them. Thank you to those awesome folks that follow along and that love a good comeback story!! The thing is – this time next year I will be staging the kind of comeback that no one will believe. You probably won’t even recognise me. xx